Well hello there!

What a trip! I haven't been back here in AGES!

I've missed all my friends here... is anyone still around? Give me a shout. Actually, these days I'm mostly on facebook. I remember back in the days I was so adamant about not being "one of those people who uses facebook," but I've become that person for sure. It's the best way to keep in touch with me - so if anyone's reading this and you want to reconnect, let's do it!

I can't possibly recap everything that's happened in my life since way back when, so here are the major changes:

1. I've got a wonderful job!
Say what? Yes, I have a great job as a college advisor for a retention program. My students come from poor, underprivileged, minority background. A.k.a. they're from the hood. They're a bit rough-and-tumble and can be very frustrating, but they're good kids at heart and I'm happy to help them.

I also teach a college course for these students called Orientation and Career Development. ..."OCD" I had no choice in the name. I'm not happy about it.

2. I lived in Manhattan for a year
...With assholes. But still better than my uncle's house! Everything was convenient and close and I was 3 blocks from Central Park and it was all pretty awesome. Except for the asshole roommates.

3. But in December I moved to THE BRONX!
Oh shit, I misspelled that. I meant DA BRONX.
I'm now in my own apartment with one of my best friends as my roommate! It's going well so far, but we're only a few blocks from Yankee Stadium... I'm afraid it'll be a nightmare during baseball season!
We plan on moving back to Manhattan at the end of our lease.

4. I don't know how many concerts I've been to in the last 2 years.
I've made it my life goal to live my life with as much fun and positivity and partying as possible. And I mean party in the Andrew W.K. sense, not the clubbing every night sense. To that end, I've put much effort into not being the Lindsay that began this journal - the lonely, depressed, anxiety-ridden young lady that let herself get in the way of her own happiness. I love that Lindsay dearly, and I miss her too. But I've worked through a lot of my inner bullshit and I'm better off for it.
This means being social, making friends, going out, and raging against the societal compulsion to have a normal, quiet life. This also means doing the things I always stopped myself from doing - or the things I couldn't do when I was younger: concerts, trips, foolish purchases. I still have a long way to go though!

But some things are still the same...

1. I'm still a geek and a nerd. (sci-fi, musicals, music in general, poetry, etc...)
2. I'm still very much into queer politics, gender liberationist theory, feminism, etc.
3. Still single. Fuck.
4. Still complain like there's no tomorrow. I'm convinced it's an art.

Anyway, I miss you all. Sanami, if you're still around, hit me up! I really miss you and I don't think I've thanked you enough for your friendship back in the day. I'd like to do that.
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    american idiot obc - "21 guns"


Audra McDonald and Will Swenson are dating??

and no wonder she got involved with broadway impact so quickly LOL 2 degrees of separation.



I love you all, but PLEASE i hate holiday texts so much. actually i got funny ones from ori and michelle on thanksgiving, i think? ...BUT ANYWAY no texting. omg please no texting.

(and i bet you i'll STILL get texts. -_- omg i should have put this up earlier)
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    omg this post is making me laugh so hard LOL

CREOLE IS SO HARD TO READ WTF (and a random thing about patti lupone... move along!)

sorry for the caps-yelling. it's just really annoying trying to read creole. ITS ALL PHONETIC. it's like writing english in complete slang THEN phonetically. UGH. look at this shit (then i'll translate it in french):

Creole (Kreyol):
Gade Haïti en direk kelke swa kote ou ye, depi ou gen internet.
Gade Foutbal, Nouvel, Video, L' eglise etc. dans salon lakay ou et sou Tele ou.. A la yon bel Bagay! "

French translation :
'Boite la'
regarde haiti en direct quelque soit cote vous etes, depuis vous avez l'internet. regarde le futbol, le nouvel, le video, l'eglise, etc. dans la salon a votre maison sous votre tele...
A la une belle chose!"

...seriously??? most of that's the same words! the only differences are the shortening/sounding off of some words "regarde/gade" as in "going to/gonna", "lakay/a la maison", and "bagay/chose"... oh and "gen/avez(avoir)" but i think gen is from gagner which could mean to save or gain someting, and avoir means to have, so i can see how those would be related. also, the articles and votre/notre etc arent used: it's more like "tele ou/television you(your)" instead of "your television"

ANYWAY, i think it's totally cool but it just makes it annoying as hell to read.

on the other hand, i should be reading and writing, and not random things about online haitian news/community networks...

totally appropriate icon btw. yeah. ok, not really. but kinda. whatevs.

in completely unrelated news, i'm just now beginning to see why some people don't like Patti Lupone. OMGSACRILEGE. what i mean is that sometimes her diction is kinda fuzzy... as in, she throws it out of the window in favor of pushing the sometimes completely random power notes and inflections she's famous for. but the listener is like "COME AGAIN??" ...for example, when she sings "Anything Goes"*. It's the first and only time I've heard it and gotten annoyed by it - probably because I'm so used to hearing this standard sung by more traditional singers? hm. likely. oh well, you still gotta love Patti! besides... *insert TAPDANCE INTERLUDE here* XD

*0:16-0:23 ...WHAT?
*2:22-2:27 SO '20s, love it!


OH MAN, this year's candidates are AWESOME. EVERY one of them is a character, but THIS GUY, Jimmy McMillan is the BEST... and he looks like the black Hulk Hogan. <--party's theme song is being played. awesoooome!! <-- another song, omg, LOL

and yes, that's him singing!! LMAO (lyrics:


"Jimmy McMillan a registered Democrat I created my own Political Party [Rent Is Too Damn High] because the Democratic Party not only moved to the Right and to the Left, they moved completely out of sight!"


Jimmy McMillan, Rent Is Too Damn High Party
What's your most attractive campaign promise?:
Reduction in rent, and going after the landlords who boosted the rent prices after the attack of the World Trade Center, and the landlords who have violations that raised the rent and ignored the law that they should have abided by. And I’m going after them, that is my campaign promise. The rent will be reduced, no question about that.

Describe a typical McMillan voter: The voter who can’t afford breakfast, lunch, and dinner. When they open their refrigerator, when they open their wallet, there’s nothing there….Something that the typical McMillan voter would understand is that their children have no place to live in this city. There is no future here for them. If we can’t pay the rent today, they cannot pay it tomorrow.

What's your biggest gripe with Mayor Bloomberg?: None. He didn’t vote himself into office ….I have no beef with him. I wish him well, I wish him luck, congratulations to him for becoming a rich man and his personal business. Congratulations for him for using the techniques of Bernie Madoff to persuade the people to vote for him.

Now say something nice about Mayor Bloomberg: Michael Bloomberg is a good-looking man, like I said, and I told him that, in his face. Nice-looking man, just like me. Self-preservation is the key to life.

What's your motivation for running in a race that, let's face it, you probably won't win: I don’t look at it like that. I had a reporter who asked me that the other day, he said, “McMillan, you can’t win.” I said, “Well, why are you doing a story on me, you’re not going to be a good reporter.” So you have to think positive about yourself …. Jimmy McMillan feels that he is going to be the next mayor of the city of New York, and his approach is that he is going to be the next mayor of the city of New York. You’re talking to the next mayor of the city of New York, and his name is Jimmy McMillan.

New Yorkers, edumacate yourselves on same-sex marriage!!


OK, so I've been doing my research on the same-sex marriage bill that's been presented to the New York Senate. After actually reading it to get all the finer points, I think it's brilliant because it explicitly includes that "no member of the clergy may be compelled to perform any marriage ceremony" which is what the opposition keeps saying will eventually happen. They're trying to scare religious voters into thinking that their religion and their churches are being attacked. THIS IS CLEARLY UNTRUE.

Anyway, let's look at a few things I want all my fellow New Yorkers to do...

1. Before doing anything: READ THE BILL!
As it passed in the NY State Assembly 5/12 (gay bill in da House! *epic roof raising*)
As it's sitting on the table at the NY Senate!!

Click here to find out who it is (this will also give you your Senator for step 3)
Now, find out how they voted (where it says "votes")
Then feel proud if they said YES. Mine did! (Helene Weinstein)

Remember your senator's name, address, and number from #2? Great!
Find out how they stand here!

My senator, Kevin Parker, along with 18 others, introduced the bill at the request of Governor Paterson. It's also supported by the majority leader, so that's 20 we've got so far. That site will even show you which direction the undecided Senators are leaning.

Is yours on that list?

4. If your senator is "undecided" or "no" CALL THEM UP, WRITE TO THEM, or SIGN A PETITION to tell them to vote YES!
If you want to call, don't worry, you will most likely talk to a secretary, anyway. If they're a "no", ask why. Then ask if they believe in the CONSTITUTION. Ask if they believe in the SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE. Remind them that there are 1,324 rights same-sex couples are DENIED. Tell them they are FORCED TO LIE ON GOVERNMENT DOCUMENTS when asked to check "Married or Single" because they're NOT single, they're in committed relationships that have as much emotional validity as an opposite-sex couple! This may seem like no-brainers, but they need to hear it and they need to know. More importantly, they need to know that their citizens feel this way!

5. AND Tell them to bring this to the floor THIS SESSION by voting YES. You know, they don't have to take a vote on this during the 09/10 session, they could just ignore it! Let's not let 'em! On my PTK trip to the state capital last year, we learned that there are many bills that just SIT THERE and don't get signed for whatever reason. Sometimes they're too controversial, seen as unimportant, or Senators don't want to upset their "constituents" by voting either way or voting too soon. They're PAWNS, believe me. WE have to move them.
CALL THEM and let them you that YOU are their constituents and YOU want them to uphold the constitution and the promise of democracy it brings to each citizen of this country BY GETTING THIS BILL SIGNED! Tell them (in a polite way): Don't leave this on the floor because we'll make even more noise next year, and the year after, and the following until it's done.
We're not going to disappear if they ignore the issue.

ALL EYES ARE ON NEW YORK. We're already late on this - let's live up to our reputation of being a more liberal, accepting, "freedom" state!!

*falls off soap box*


Now I have several more arguments against conservative religious people's stance that it goes "against God's will" and yadda, yadda:

A) One of the most fundamental values of Christian doctrine states that all humans have free will by the grace of God (to my understanding, it's the same in Muslim and Jewish doctrine as well, but for obvious reasons, I cite Christian doctrine). According to their own beliefs, God gave us free will so that we may freely choose to follow his teachings as described in the bible and as preached by his son and the prophets. HOW CAN WE FREELY CHOOSE TO DO GOOD OR EVIL IF THE SECULAR LAW DECIDES FOR US? By barring this civil right for a segment of the population, you are taking away their GOD-GIVEN free will to choose how to live their lives.
Some might bring up arguments like "god gives us the free will to murder too! should we have a law that allows that?!" but that's different for the following reason: no one's safety is jeopardized in a consensual relationship. The banning of gay marriage is an attempt to take away the choice of being in a same-sex relationship -or at least make it less appealing- because it's a "lifestyle" that's frowned upon by their religion as well as their own personal values and prejudices. In short, they're trying to force their religious values on secular laws in order to govern your personal relations, whereas the laws of their religion say that every individual has the god-given right to make their own personal choices!! Oh, ho, ho, hypocrisy!

B) Can you walk into your church and get a divorce? NO, you can't. Why? BECAUSE MARRIAGE IS A CIVIL INSTITUTION, NOT A RELIGIOUS ONE**. Likewise, you must obtain a marriage license in order to be LEGALLY married. If civil law can only have jurisdiction over what is civil, then why are there laws governing marriage at all? Because it is a civil institution. Legally, it has nothing to do with your religion, and if it did that would be discriminatory, not to mention unconstitutional. Atheists and other non-Christians can get married. So, not only does the right to marriage need to be separated from religious ideals, but also the civil institution of marriage must be extended to ALL couples.

**I'm not ignoring that marriage is seen as a religious institution by many people, I'm saying that as citizens, it is first and foremost a civil institution.

C) Are Christian priests forced to marry Hindu couples? Jewish couples? Atheist couples? No. Likewise, they should not and would not be asked to marry homosexual couples. DUH. So right-wing conservative fundamentalists need to chill-the-fuck-out and stop making slippery-slope arguments that don't make no damned sense. Don't be intimidated by the bullshit arguments they throw: we CAN check the facts, we have, and they're wrong. NEXT.

D) New York State now recognizes same-sex marriages issued in other states and jurisdictions.
Let me restate that: if Adam and Steve got married in Canada, their marriage is now valid in New York, but if Ally and Eve want to wait until they can get married at home in New York, they're not a valid committed couple in their own home.
Yes, this is an important step forward; however, this clearly makes a fist-class/second-class dynamic by validating only some same-sex couples and not others. New York couples who have gone outside their home state to get married are valued more than couples who haven't. Let's ignore how unfair and unintentionally (?) class-biased that is for a moment and realize that not every couple CAN do that and not every couple WANTS to.
...Actually, let's go there with the class-bias thing: This law is essentially saying "we'll validate your committed relationship if you have the economic means and leisure of going outside of your home state to get married" ...that's fucked up. That's like saying we'll only recognize straight couples that can get hitched in Vegas. These days, even interstate travel (especially through long distances) is just not affordable for many people. And the cost of marriage licenses and getting transportation for your family and friends, etc will also add to the burden. Also, states like Massachusetts do not let residents of other states get married. This further limits the choices of same-sex couples when it comes to getting married elsewhere.
Besides, why should these couples be forced to go away from home to get married? If anything I'd want to get married in my town where I can share my joyful time with neighbors, family, and friends. I wouldn't want to be a foreigner in the place I get married. I don't want to have to make a pilgrimage to a Marriage Mecca whereas my straight neighbors are validated and respected by the laws of the same streets on which we live. It's just not fair. No one should have to leave their state, their home, their place of work and worship in order to receive a damned piece of paper signifying what should be a civil right!

And here comes another problem (and obvious solution):

E) Taxes, license fees, tourism revenue, etc. is going to other states when the money could stay here in NY and generate an estimated 2-something-million ANNUALLY (OK, so I forgot the actual figure stated, sue me. Just know that it's a significant amount). Let's not forget that most same-sex couple households are "double income, no kids", also known as "taxed like crazy" or "income tax revenue increase = $tate win$". But instead, we hear that it would cost wholesome, tax-paying (read the prejudice: "straight", "normal", "good") families lots of money, and then we'd have to cut funding for education! O.M.G.! NO, not the childrens!!!11!!!1one!! Bullshit. No one's cutting education in favor of gay marriage, relax. I think someone's been drinking 'reductio ad absurdum' flavored Haterade. These folks might as well say "gay marriage destroys our children's education!" but I guess putting it that way makes it sound as dumb as it is.


So the moral of the story is, opposing gay marriage is stupid no matter how you slice it. We should be educated about how to get this happening in our state. Pass it on to your friends and anyone who will listen (without beating you up or getting you kicked out =D).

I hope I helped bring some light on this issue and why I feel it's important. To be honest, I don't personally support the institution of marriage at all, but it means the world to many people, both gay and straight and everything in between. It's clear that despite my feelings about marriage, it is an important social institution that has deep social, economic, religious/spiritual, personal, interpersonal, and cultural meanings. So for all the reasons I stated above and for all those that I forgot, this should be available to ALL citizens of this so-purported "great country" (in quotations because it has yet to live up to its name if "free" is what's meant by "great", as it so often is).

p.s. Please comment if you find errors or falsehoods anywhere in this post! Thanks!
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NEW YORK 的にも オールオッケー!!

First, I have to say that I've always felt that T.M.Revolution has the best fan base in the world, but everything I ever thought was confirmed a hundred times over this weekend. You guys were AMAZING. While I helped at the booth, I met so many amazing fans; including tmrevolutionists, some people I met through winds-turbo, winds-turbo staff from Japan, and some I met for the first time, like Melissa, a pretty amazing fan and musician who will join the community soon. I was so happy that I kept grabbing at you all for hugs, sorry! In my excitement I forgot everything about personal space, seriously.

I wasn't sure what to write and what to leave out. Since I won’t bother writing different posts for my personal lj and tmrevolutionist, I’ll keep it honest while leaving out stuff to protect the guilty. I couldn’t sort out my feelings because sometimes I felt drained and stressed. But overall it was a great feeling to be there with you guys supporting T.M.R. the best I could and with an amazing group of people – sometime during the weekend the term “professional fan” was coined and I think that's hillarious.

Now, onto the good stuff... [WARNING: this was 14 pages as a Word document!]

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So, you see, I should be on cloud 9 right now (“9”, lol). The thing is... as of April 19th, I've seen the three bands I've been totally living for (and now I can admit that TMR is #1 on that list). Right after the concert and again on Sunday after karaoke... I felt like it was all over, but it took me a day or two to realize my new goals.
1. I'm going to learn Japanese - I wanted to understand his words directly and I wanted to communicate with the Japanese fans but I couldn't, also, Takanori is studying English to communicate with us better so I want to meet him half way.
2. I also want to help T.M.R. come back to perform in the US again - I think this is one of his goals and I want to help him reach his dreams.
3. And finally, I will go to see him perform in Japan!!

Thanks for reading!

[EDIT] Interviewer guy = Mr. Brian Nishi (yes, i used his full name everytime i mentioned it here, lol. he's cool!)
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    T.M.Revolution - "Pied Piper"